Monday, May 24, 2010
I can't believe I have been here for five weeks. I don't feel ready to be the oldest district in my zone, but next week we will be. Tonight we officially teach the first lesson in Spanish! I really don't worry too much about the language because I am working hard to learn in and I know the Lord will bless me. I definitely struggle, but the Lord called me to learn Spanish and He will not abandon me. I heard a talk that Elder Bednar gave to the MTC last year and it was about knowing when it is the spirit or just yourself. His answer was so simple: Don't worry about it! If I am being a good girl and keeping the commandments and living up to my covenants the Lord WILL guide my path and I will be in the right place at the right time. He said that everything good is from God, so if I have a good idea or thought come into my mind don't worry about whether it is just me, just do it!! I must press forward with faith and obedience and the Lord will guide me. This helped me so much because I think I was always expecting really dramatic instances with the spirit to lead me to investigators and things, but it will not always happen that way. Most of the time it will just be me living faithfully and I won't even realize what the Lord has prepared.