Wow, I can't believe I have been here for two weeks already, and this past week has been so amazing.
I am really getting the hang of tours, and I love doing them. They can be really spiritually exhausting though, and by the end of the day I am sick of hearing myself talk (I know crazy right) and I am just beat. And I know that when I have a proselyting area I will be just as tired. I love the tours though because we get to teach the lessons throughout our tours, just because we are not sitting down in someone's home does not mean that we don't give the PMG lessons. We use lots of scriptures, bear testimony the whole way through, and sometimes, if the spirit tells me, I give commitments. Most of the people are members, but we definitely get non-members. And a couple non-members that we have had self-referred! meaning they wanted to learn more and have the missionaries bring them a book of Mormon or finding faith in Christ dvd and then teach them a lesson. Maybe after my mission we can all come back to Kirtland and I could help give the tour.
So the other part of being at the visitors center is calling all the referrals we get, and also answering inbound calls from those who called the number on the back of the pass along cards. At first I was kind of nervous to call, but then I realized that if I was so excited to share the gospel with someone face to face, why can't I do it on the phone? It can definitely be discouraging when you call these people everyday and they don't answer their phones ever, or they do not accept missionaries to bring them something and share a message, but I have had some really great experiences. President Monson came here last October and I guess he told the sisters that what we do here is really important, and that they only send certain sisters here. I am glad I have the opportunity to be here, because I could have been put in a full proselyting area. And he said that it is a skill when we can have someone feel the spirit on the phone as we testify, and have them accept missionaries. At first I did not feel that much like a missionary because we are the only sisters without a proselyting area right now, and I have been praying so hard for that feeling that the Lord is proud of me for what I am doing. And He has really answered my prayers.
I have been getting quite a few referrals over the past week, and my trainer is like no one ever gets that many in one day, and she is just saying how proud of me she is. And I have been amazed that so many people are accepting. And some of these calls I am doing in Spanish...scary because i have no one next to me telling me what I am saying wrong, or helping me when I don't understand...but I know that it is not me at all. The Lord has prepared these people, and I know that this is my answer, that He sees me as a missionary, and I am doing missionary work. And He is blessing me with these experiences. I am so glad for His help, and for His faith in me, and for His willingness to allow me to be a part of His work and find these people ready for the gospel. And even though I don't get to be there with these people who accept missionaries, and I won't get to see the fruits of my labor, I know that I am doing the Lord's work, and I am opening a door for them to receive missionaries and be taught. I will get my chance to have an area and have investigators, but that is not my assignment right now.
I am happy, and I love being happy, and it is so much easier to just do my part diligently and efficiently, and put everything in the Lord's hands. So mom and dad, just do the best you can, and leave the rest to the Lord, everything will be made right, everything will work out how it is supposed to!
I know that the Lord answers prayers. We have to make sure we can recognize those times our prayers are being answered. I know the Lord knows each and everyone one of us. He knows exactly how to help us because He suffered for everything. He was beaten, mocked, and crucified for those he had literally just atoned for. He is our advocate to the Father, he pleads for us to the Father. Why would we not repent and come unto Him? Oh I just want to tell the whole world what Christ did for us, and that they must repent, and they can repent! He has already suffered! This church is perfect, it is led by our perfect Savior. We are imperfect, but the church is perfect. If we can just partake of all the necessary ordinances in this life, and then endure to the end, we will have eternal life. Our perfect Father is giving us a chance to be like Him, and to be with Him, and to be with our families. Please never forget what we have. We have the knowledge of His plan. And if we all truly understand and internalize this plan we will not be content without sharing it. I love and miss you all.