Well another week has gone by. I kind of get tired of hearing myself talk at the end of the day because of all the tours ha ha. But it is good, I really love giving them. I love this opportunity to be the vehicle on these tours for the spirit, and to give members, and non-members, a chance to have their testimony strengthened. And I love learning about all the church history here. Emma is my hero. And I have really just started gaining such a strong testimony of prophets, and also of personal revelation. I have always had a testimony of prophets, but I know that I took for granted what the prophets and apostles teach us today. I mean we have someone who receives direct revelation from God, for us!! We don't have to wonder what is right, how we should live, we know because of the prophets! Prophets from the scriptures, and also today we get revelation specifically for our time. The Lord speaks through President Monson, and I know that.
And I am trying to be better at knowing what he is telling us.
And how cool is it that we have the same access to revelation that Pres. Monson has?! I mean if we have a question we can, and should, ask our Heavenly Father. He knows each and everyone one of us, and wants to bless us and give us guidance. He is a perfect, glorified being and He still wants to communicate with us, His children, who can't even be obedient all the time. but that is what His love is. I was talking on the phone the other day with a women who just had no self worth. She thought there was no hope for herself, and she actually just started telling me her whole story of how she has been in hospitals because she has tried committing suicide (scary, I was freaking out listening to this) and that she isn't worthy to have the missionaries, but that she is praying and trying to be better and trying to quit smoking. It just broke my heart that she thought she was worthless. All I could do was bear testimony. It was so hard to hear about her life, but at the end of the phone call she wanted to talk to missionaries and she thanked me for helping her and for talking with her. It is amazing what the spirit can do. She asked me how I knew she was a daughter of God and told her, and I told her she could never forget that, and that no matter what our Heavenly Father will always love us, and that our Savior knows exactly what she is going through and wants to help her, she just has to take his outstrethced hand. Talking to her helped strengthen my testimony of our Heavenly Father.
I am glad that I get the opportunity to teach and talk on the phone. I am sooooo excited though for when I get a proselyting area, whether here or in Spain. Because I love talking to people, but we are just asking people if they would allow us to send missionaries over, and although we bear testimony and teach mini lessons, I am anxious to get out there and have an area and investigators. But the Lord would not be having me do this if it wasn't important, and He has been kind and helped me feel His love and that I am still doing what He wants me to.
Well, I love you all and I hope you are still keeping up family scripture reading. I love hearing your emails and letters about how you are all growing in the gospel. Because it is so important that we do not become complacent with the gospel, we should always be progressing, and that is something I have definitely learned out here. I was doing good things before the mission, but I have already seen so many ways I need to improve and be better. I hope to hear "well done thou good and faithful servant" when I get to the other side.